At this moment I am, once again, exhausted. I know you are wondering why this continues to happen to me and you are not alone. I recognize that this is a product of the stress of an upcoming graduation (and a number of family members coming to visit for the 1st time) as well as the intimidating loom of bar prep this summer on top of daily issues. After a convo with a great friend during which I complained about being tired, said friend pointed out that I am involved in a lot of things. Said friend also mentioned how astounded they are they I manage to handle all of it and make it look easy. Further, I am reminded that my body is on the verge of forcing me to slow down since I insist on going full steam ahead 7 days/week and giving everything 110%. That convo prompted me to sit down and think about all the things I have going on right now. Check out the 7 day breakdown of my schedule:
Monday
9am-5:15pm Internship
6-8:30 pm-Class
9pm-12am Debate Practice
Tuesday
8am-12pm Graduate Assistant Office Duties
1pm-5:15pm Internship
9pm-12am Debate Practice
Wednesday
8am-12pm Graduate Assistant Office Duties
1pm-5pm Internship
6pm-8:30pm Class
9pm-12am Debate Practice
Thursday
8am-12pm Graduate Assistant Office Duties
1-1:30pm Staff Meeting
2-3pm Rep duties for a bar prep company
4-6pm Class
9pm-12am Debate Practice
Friday
1:30-4pm Class
9pm-12am Debate Practice
Saturday
3pm-8pm Work
Sunday
10am-4pm Work
6pm-10pm Debate Practice
At this point, I am starting to think I MIGHT have too much on my plate. I started doing all of the things I do for strategic reasons. I work at a retail store that sells my favorite suits so I can get discounts of up to 70% off of suits that I will need once I start working. I took on the grad assistant position to cover my tuition and room and board. I took on the rep position with the bar prep company so I could save money on course fees. I could spit out numbers like $3425, the amount I am saving on my bar prep course; or $25, 916 the amount I did NOT have to pay in tuition; or $10,200, the amount I DID NOT have to pay for my room & board for the past 2 years; or $10,000, the amount I earned in merit scholarships; or $132,000, the amount I expected to be in debt after law school but I am nowhere near that amount. Despite all the benefits, something has to give. I NEED to REST. I dont mean the kind of rest you get when you get 8 hours of sleep. I mean I need to take a few days off and clear my mind so that I can feel relaxed. I need to get out of my tiny room and leave my laptop and books behind for a mind-freeing experience. Basically, I yearn to be a kid again. I just had one of those moments where you realize just how easy kids have it. Ever had one? Oh thats just me? Oh ok.
Raine ;-)
In the mean time, check my Dougie.